till we meet again.

The hardest part in goodbyes for me is having the memories with that person with you while she's gone.

thats probably why they call it bittersweet memories.

Lorna Ashwini Proctor, the first year we were in the same class together, we didn't know each other much. But I guess we both got to know each other so much more when we were sixteen. She was almost the only girl I knew in class. So sitting next to her was, i could say one of those decisions I will never regret. She was a shoulder to lean on to weep, she was there during my most difficult times.

She was one of the very few people who I can so easily open up and talk about anything and everything. And yesh, she is one of the very very very few people who'd just spend time listening to my thoughts, my dreams, anything and everything! There were so many times she spoke sense into my head. Gawd, Lorna if you're reading this, just know I'm not getting into an emotional breakdown. lol. You've been a tremendous blessing to me!

In about a days time, she'll be flying off to the states. Gawd, I'll miss her so very much! From the very few years I've lived, I learnt that it ain't easy to get by awesome friends, and now I won't be able to see her, criticize her bad driving, have someone to listen, someone to talk some sense into my hard head, someone to pour to, someone to scare off short people and on and on and on..

Yes, I've been trying to talk myself into not getting over emotional about it. Still trying. Hopefully, I'll be able to hold it all in like I always do on friday.

I remember having to send emily off years back. Gawd, I could talk to emily about anything and everything! we stil do, but not that all often. Man, I miss her! You're an awesome person emily!

Having the times we shared together play in my mind like a silent movie, that'll be the hardest part. And when theres another outing with the gang and she's not there. Or when I ring her phone and no one answers, gawd that'll hurt!



thank god there's skype! but wait, can she skype? dang.

yeah, we shared those high school moments together.. I could seriously go on and on and on and on and on and on..

but you can read more from the chan's blog.=)

but I guess as of now, its till we meet again love.

school is out! NO!!

you know how people say, your life flashes before your eye when you are about to cross to the after life.. wait, that doesn't make sense, those people are still alive.. well, I guess its what the movies say..

anyway, if are going to have glimpse of our life flashed before our eye, have you ever thought what would some of the glimpse be?

I have been thinking and there are some glimpse I want to see before I cross.. you?

gawd, thats a depressing thought!

HAPPY THOUGHT HAPPY THOUGHTS HAPPY THOUGHTS HAPPY THOUGHTS

aha! I just got home from frasers hill, which was nice because I get to have clean unpolluted cold breeze.. and I went jungle trekking on four tracks! which was really nice and one was a real challenge! and I had my first leech bite, not that i haven't been camping or hiking or jungle trekking before, I've done them many times, but never made friends with leech along the way, until now.. =)

saw a big fat lump in between my ring and little finger.. gawd! and I didn't feel anything! then I saw my ankle bleeding, but my finger was real bloody after like a minute.. there, happy thoughts..

on a lighter note, semester begins tom.. that means

new classes, new classmates, more freshmen, more life lessons, more frustration over the train and.. you get the drift..

oh wait, I just realised.. schools out,that also means more people crowding the mall, which more people in train, which also means more delays with train.. *stares blankly*

*reaches for a pen beside*

*stabs self*

let it go

walk, walk and then run

run faster

and if you stumble and fall

get up

brush your wounds away

then start walking again.

hang in there

its a journey they say.

you and I, we're travellers.

but what if you stopped for a while?

and everyone else kept moving on.

and you're all alone. lost.

will you move forward to the unknown

or remain where you are hoping He'll come for you?

birthdays

birthdays.. its never was about the gifts, the money or the acknowlegement..

it has always been about the time spent, the company, and most importantly the thought..

thanks guys for all the wishes.. appreciate it..

although this time you forgot.

=)

I know my mum don't read blogs but she rawks my world!

and if I were to sum up this years birthday in one word.. it would be - unexpected.

Goodday ya'll.

I learnt today

....its all about the money, the goo goo ga ga's and the huu haa's

its never been about the heart..

never.

feeling blah?

there were times I signed in all ready to punch the letters on my keyboard.. but then after looking at the blank space where you start writing, I'd probabaly just sigh and click on the red X button on the far right.. yes the exit.

like I'm about to do in a while. and no, its not that I have nothing to write about.. but its the many other reason besides that one. but oh well, this is something now. I might just restart blogging.. MIGHT is a strong word.

I guess, there are times I rather take the exit than anything else. But I guess this time I've been just staring at the exit for quite some time. time to move.

and by the way, that picture above was taken at the airport when grandpa and grandma left. And I'm proud to have taken it, perfect lighting, angle and best of all nobody was aware of that picture taken.. =)

till then,

goodnight world.